annapurna round - phase I

walking

the rythm
the necessary words
-rest?
-yes
then there is rest

thoughts arise
like thoughts do
you pass them by
as if you stand still while walking

the mountains are there
no need to look at them too long
as if you watch with closed eyes
as if you`re outside from the inside
-can you take my drinking bottle?
no,other side
-ok

the necessary words
you walk
you share
because you`re three
you know
still so many days
that`s why you walk
and why you stand still while walking

you walk
she walks
he walks
we
as if a conspiracy

-ok?
-ok
-how long?
-one hour
and that appears to be 30 minutes

you`re happy when you stop
you`re happy when you leave
in the end a tea is heaven

you walk
you pass a stretcher
with a man
without fingers

a few minutes before you were thinking
how lucky you are
with all your limbs

your life unrolls
you pass it by
your feet walk

you think of someone
you make a comparison
how she maybe walks the path with the least stones, the least holes
how you, next to it, on the same way, deliberately choose the side with the most obstacles
just
because that`s how you are
but you arrive in the same place

you walk
in nepal many mountain
your guide guides

the road sewed with stones and memories
with perspectives maybe too beautiful
you pass them by
you call yourself back
"now,now,now"

there you are again
there is the mountain
here the swollen ankle
you learn how to lose time

wether you know how late it is or not
it won`t get you there faster

-up?
-little up, then flat
slowly
your guide guides

even by stopping you don`t lose the rythm anymore

still more days ahead then you did
walking
forward

why?
for pleasure
to learn how to enjoy a tea again
warm socks, water when you`re thirsty

you pass porters
chips, backpacks, generators
that`s your fault
because you want to walk
they`re wearing flip-flops and 100 kilo
you hiking shoes and 6

but you walk
you pass them by
concentration
no space for namaste
only for the next step
the concentration of an animal

you pass them by
with guilt and respect
you try to become a better person
that`s why you walk
you can also stand still
but you walk
in order to
later, when you`re back where you once were
to live how you stood still while you were walking

you can do anything
without moving a finger
but sometimes you need to move them all
in order to know that that`s not necessary

sometimes you need to travel
in order to know that you don`t need to travel
because the mountains are everywhere
because the mountains are silent
because there are many mountain
not only in nepal
but everywhere

you walk
and you know
suddenly
certainly
in complete loneliness
that you`re never alone

sometimes standing still is the most forward we can go